January 22: Are you seeking security or adventure?
Security. No….. wait…..maybe it’s adventure! I want both. I feel like I should be seeking security. I feel like I should be seeking stability. And I do want security and stability. I do want to walk along the path that leads somewhere and not anywhere. But every time I walk by a travel agency my eyes light up. As my eyes dance over the colourful advertisements for exotic destinations, I wrap my scarf a little tighter around my neck, and dream a little. Silver beaches, coconut juice, blue-blue water.
But maybe that isn’t such an adventure. Maybe that is my security. Somehow everything fell into place in Thailand, and for six years, I always felt certain that things would. I somehow knew that I would always find another job or another apartment, and that whatever drama I was going through would pass. My life wasn’t perfect, but even when things got a bit mucky, I continued to grow. I felt secure in Thailand.
In Canada, I feel uncertain. Maybe this is my adventure. Somehow I am not so sure everything will fall into place. I’ve always got one hand on my passport and the other’s flipping through the classifieds. Maybe this is what I need to embrace. I need to embrace this new adventure, and navigate this new world with an open heart and mind. Perhaps, in Canada, I can find security and adventure. And to be honest, I really wouldn’t want to settle for just one.